The Wall

Yesterday I woke up with a weight on my shoulders. I don't know what it was from but it was HUGE. There was no workout, bad food and wallowing involved in my morning. I couldn't get motivated to save my life. I was in a state of depression. Then I started thinking about everyone involved in my Battle to Heal campaign and thought I can't do this. I need to move. Well, let me tell you it took me all day to feel right again. At noon, I got off the couch and moved a little, taking my computer back to my office and opening up the email. However, this proved too much for me. So I tried again with doing the dishes in the sink and then rewarding myself with a 15 minute break. Yes, the break was longer than the task but yesterday that was all I could muster. I then did a quick swish and swipe in the downstairs bathroom and the day started getting better. You see for me cleaning is like soul revival. I get a sense of satisfaction that keeps me going and at the end of the day, I have a clean house. After those two tasks I was able to come up to the office and get some typing and emails done. By the end of the night my husband and I had sent out the emails he needed to get out for his business and I was feeling much better.


I started out the day with eating 10 potato chips (that is all I would allow myself to wallow with) but by the end of the day I was eating fruit and salad. As I started to feel better about the day, my eating got better. In this I realized that I eat or snack out of depressed thoughts. Next time I will work to clean my house and eat a little better, I bet the depression won't last for a day that way.

What I'm telling you is that depression and feelings of overwhelm are inevitable along our journey. Our job is to find the causes and realize solutions that will help us. For me it is taking small steps in organizing and cleaning that help me to feel better about myself thus pulling me out of my depression. I am happy to say that I only ate 10 potato chips and 2 marshmallows (only on hand because of s'mores the other night) during this little depression bout. In the past I would have eaten a ton of stuff and probably headed to a fast food joint. Don't get me wrong, I was tempted but decided the veggie pizza downstairs was a better choice and it was; 600 calories instead of 1000 makes for a much better choice. This is what my journey is about ~ making better, healthier choices thereby losing weight. At the end of the day I celebrate my choices...did I choose a better option for eating? Did I choose a workout that worked for me today? Did I choose to workout at all? Did I choose to drink water? Did I choose to drink beer or wine? Soda or lemonade? These are the choices that will ultimately lead to a healthier lifestyle and a longer life.

This is my journey and I'd love to help you with your journey. I'm human and I do the same things you do - sometimes accountability and empathy are what we need to succeed in your life journey. Feel free to email me at battle2heal@gmail.com and we can chat. I'm a coach that can take you to the places you want to go because I have been there with you, felt it with you and we can surpass expectations together!